This Girl Right Here..

So I guess that my previous post is not my last yet. Right now, I envy my friend. I don't even know how this feeling stayed with me for quite a while now. But one thing is for sure: I am not in my comfort zone for I feel envious of her.

I envy her because of love. Not because she's being loved by someone special to me but because she has found true love. And I haven't.

I thought that maybe this was her time. Her time to be happy being in love.

But what about me? I know I'm being selfish. And I know that each and everyone does not have the same fate and road of life.

As the saying goes, "The happiest people are the ones who knows how to be contented with what they have" It is not my nature to feel this way because I don't ask too much.. Or I do but not ofen.

I know that in time, I'll be able to answer my own question and be enlightened. But when will this day come? I think.

So for now, I'm trying to enjoy life even though most of the time I'm just lazing around the house and do nothing. I have to do something >_<

Where am I really heading to?

This might be my last post. Lol ;)) I don't know but that thought hit me. I just don't know why.
As of today, I really don't know what will happen tomorrow. Whether it will be a gloomy day, bad day, wonderful day. It depends on how people look at it, actually. All I know is that I want a peaceful life. And I want my loved ones to be happy. I actually want everyone happy. Alive or dead, I hope they find peace.

I want my family to have the best of everything. I may be called selfish but I want them to be happy. I want them to know that I feel sorry for every wrong thing that I have done. Well actually I did let them feel. I am only still starting though.

Things that I want to happen:

* Everyone to be happy
* Win the contest that I'll be entering
* For those whom I have done wrong to forgive me especially God
* Hope that crime/negative things/wrong doings LESSEN. It won't stop, I know. Because the world wouldn't be balanced. I just hope that it will lessen.

I'm really not a good person but I know that this time, I am sincere. Heehee. I don't know what's happening to me :)

Learn how to love yourself before you love sombody else so that you could love them with all your heart. Seriously, what's gotten into me? x)