Facing The Stresses Away

I am more composed now than I am since I started college.

I hated every single day of my life since I didn't get what I want. It was like living in a life which you hated. Everyday was like waking up from a nightmare and I hated it. Sometimes I wonder why all these things happen to me. Did I do something to deserve this? And that's how the story goes..

It started when I graduated from my lovely life, highschool. During vacation, I do my daily routines -- Boring. Same old, same old. Until my father told me that I am going to a college near our house and I will choose a course which is related to Computer. But then, they were the one who picked for me. I had no freedom. I felt miserable. I had to withdraw from the University that I wanted to meet the parents requirements. Or my own rather. (Was it mine?) I am confused myself.

Since I am an obedient person, I followed them not knowing that it would affect my personal life in the future. Later, I realized that I am starting to look at life negatively. I am starting to hate waking up in the morning. And all I can do was eat, sleep and do nonsense things. Sometimes, I even stare at something for a whole hour without noticing it. I just realized that I gave up something that I loved. And I regreted it.

But doing those things won't solve any of my problems. And it was obvious. I need to make a great effort to love what I am doing and to love where am I heading to. Few years back then, I always want to write. Write, write and write! And now, I knew that I can do it eventhough my course is related to computers.

I even notice myself writing infront of the professor even if he is discussing a lecture or something. I've always known what I want and I just didn't take notice of it. I always ignored it. And that was one of the bad things I did in my life. But now, I am enlightened. I now know what I want. I want to put my life into writing everything I want and that's just enough. Right now, I am more confident with myself. It's just that sometimes, I am a huge slacker. I don't listen to my professors (Sometimes) and I just mind my own business by writing things that's on my mind. I love doodling in my notebook and its fun! You should try it as well! (winks)

Anyway, that's the end of the story. I just have to look at things positively so that I will have a positive result. The End.